Paco Dennis
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- Location
- Mid-Missouri
In the past 6 months I have developed nerve damage that has changed my life around. It developed slowly and now I am confined to a comfort chair. I can exercise for about 1/2 an hour before the pain and fatigue get me to sit down again.
Before this happened I was active. I worked around the farm. I enjoyed friends and family visits. I listened and created music. My life was going ok. Now, all that has come to "pause"...I hope. My disease is usually not curable. One needs to learn how to manage physical and mental/emotional suffering. There are many helpful methods ( many are discussed on this forum ).
If people are interested in my journey, I will be posting to this diary when the spirit moves me. I do not desire any SORROW from others about this. I know that millions of people face suffering all over the world everyday. So this is an account of my life and thoughts that begins in my 70th decade journey.
I decided to start this diary because I have been part of this online community for about 7 months and have enjoyed the people and variety of interests and the variety of views shared openly. I don't like being "self" interested but because of the onset of this illness I have become very self involved.
It is difficult to get beyond the almost constant pain but that is what needs to be done, and it can be. I now have Zoom meetings with others that have "Peripheral Neuropathy." There are about 8 percent of seniors who suffer from this illness. (Misa just said that there was a shooting in Columbia and 3 people were injured. So pain visited them and there friends and family.) Suffering is with us in some ways each day.
I have hesitated to start this diary because this forum seems to emphasize happiness and joy about life. We are encouraged to keep things light hearted. I am needing to express this journey that has changed my ability to enjoy life like I once did. This illness could pass or they might eventually find some cure, but for now this is what it is.
I do want you to post your thoughts/feelings when the spirit moves you. Life is filled with complex issues, and I hear of "management techniques" daily to help keep us going. We post about these issues too here in different form. Different things work for some people but they don't for others.
We all have to find our own way to thrive. I am having a tendency to withdraw into myself and I don't not think that is the best way to go. So I am hoping that this diary will keep me open to telling what is happening in my world on our farm.
Before this happened I was active. I worked around the farm. I enjoyed friends and family visits. I listened and created music. My life was going ok. Now, all that has come to "pause"...I hope. My disease is usually not curable. One needs to learn how to manage physical and mental/emotional suffering. There are many helpful methods ( many are discussed on this forum ).
If people are interested in my journey, I will be posting to this diary when the spirit moves me. I do not desire any SORROW from others about this. I know that millions of people face suffering all over the world everyday. So this is an account of my life and thoughts that begins in my 70th decade journey.
I decided to start this diary because I have been part of this online community for about 7 months and have enjoyed the people and variety of interests and the variety of views shared openly. I don't like being "self" interested but because of the onset of this illness I have become very self involved.
It is difficult to get beyond the almost constant pain but that is what needs to be done, and it can be. I now have Zoom meetings with others that have "Peripheral Neuropathy." There are about 8 percent of seniors who suffer from this illness. (Misa just said that there was a shooting in Columbia and 3 people were injured. So pain visited them and there friends and family.) Suffering is with us in some ways each day.
I have hesitated to start this diary because this forum seems to emphasize happiness and joy about life. We are encouraged to keep things light hearted. I am needing to express this journey that has changed my ability to enjoy life like I once did. This illness could pass or they might eventually find some cure, but for now this is what it is.
I do want you to post your thoughts/feelings when the spirit moves you. Life is filled with complex issues, and I hear of "management techniques" daily to help keep us going. We post about these issues too here in different form. Different things work for some people but they don't for others.
We all have to find our own way to thrive. I am having a tendency to withdraw into myself and I don't not think that is the best way to go. So I am hoping that this diary will keep me open to telling what is happening in my world on our farm.