Reflections of My Life

I wish I was the kind of mother that could just pay for stuff for my son and not make him pay me back. But he gets much more money from SS than I do because it comes from his father's benefit (Disabled Adult Child).

When he moved into my building I bought his bed and paid his final electric bill from his old apartment with my credit card. I had no choice. Presently he is paying an extra $100. a month on the deposit for his apartment here. It will be paid off in Oct. Then I will start taking $100. a month from his check to pay on my card. I feel guilty doing that but it is a hardship for me to pay it.

The thing about him, even though he is 54, he has no understanding of how much money his check is or what his bills are. It is frustrating. We manage though and since moving here he always has food. Plus having a nice apartment. Today the food bank food boxes arrived so I went downstairs and got his two boxes and took them up to him. He might not like the particular foods in there but at least it is something to eat.

I had also got an order from Walmart because Rabbit was out of bananas. So I got a few things I needed and for Jeff too. Ground beef, guacamole, coke and coffee. That is what likes best. Usually I get him ice cream too but his check comes tomorrow so he can get that then.
I'm happy he came to live there. You take good care of him without treating him like a child. I can see why it's frustrating and I hope he has ways of showing you appreciation for what you do. ❤
 

I'm happy he came to live there. You take good care of him without treating him like a child. I can see why it's frustrating and I hope he has ways of showing you appreciation for what you do. ❤
Sometimes I think he doesn't care but the other day when I came home from my doctor's appointment he came to my apartment and wanted to know if I was okay. He was worried because I went to a doctor (he knows I don't go to them very often). I assured him it was just part of the wellness physical required by Medicare. He asked me again about it today. He had also asked me how old I was and when I said 72, his face got a scared look on it. I reminded him that he is 54 and my brother is 74.
 
I am back from my errands. Rents are paid. Jeff has his money. I changed my clothes to get into something cooler. Now making strawberry ice cream in the Creami. I did not want to go to Walmart. Too many cars in the parking lot so I told Sonny no. So here I am back home eating ice cream. If we get the thunder and lightning storm predicted I am safe at home.
 

I have been making good morning memes from my own photos. It is fun to do and I like having new ones to use here and on fakebook. Just a matter of thinking of what to write on each one. I admit that I look at the old ones (that are not my own creation) and use some of those. Trying to put some zip into it. I have a ton of photos that are not doing anything except sitting in my computer. So I figured I may as well use them. Keeps me busy.

Now just having coffee and making plans for my day.
 
I like doing my laundry on Sunday because the building is almost completely quiet. I can sit in the laundry room waiting for my machines to finish and coloring or reading undisturbed. Then......my machine will not finish or unlock due to being unbalanced! I do everything by the rules on the washers to make sure not to overload it.

If I use the two machines on one end because last time one of them did it then one of these will do it. Finally it will open and I have to take everything out of it and put it in a different machine. Not spending another $2. to have it do it again. The laundry is soaking wet and needs to be spun out but has to go through the entire cycle.

Today doing the laundry cost me $6.00 for the washers and $3.50 for the dryers (because the washers did not finish together they could not dry together either). So $9.50 for two loads. Normally it would be $4.00 for two washers and $1.75 for one dryer because I dry both loads together. $5.75.
 
I like doing my laundry on Sunday because the building is almost completely quiet. I can sit in the laundry room waiting for my machines to finish and coloring or reading undisturbed. Then......my machine will not finish or unlock due to being unbalanced! I do everything by the rules on the washers to make sure not to overload it.

If I use the two machines on one end because last time one of them did it then one of these will do it. Finally it will open and I have to take everything out of it and put it in a different machine. Not spending another $2. to have it do it again. The laundry is soaking wet and needs to be spun out but has to go through the entire cycle.

Today doing the laundry cost me $6.00 for the washers and $3.50 for the dryers (because the washers did not finish together they could not dry together either). So $9.50 for two loads. Normally it would be $4.00 for two washers and $1.75 for one dryer because I dry both loads together. $5.75.
The laundry machines in my building all seem to have their own distinct personality too!

We have new machines from a company called Hercules that work with a prepaid card or a tap from an iPhone.

The wash is now $2.40 and $2.00 to dry for approx. one hour.

I switched to all in one laundry pods to eliminate the need to lug the various cleaning products back and forth.

I also swapped the laundry basket for inexpensive reusable grocery bags, dedicated to the laundry. It’s easier to grab the straps and do a ‘farmers carry’ than it is to carry the basket.

My only complaint is the lack of maintenance in our common areas and the people that don’t clean up after themselves.

Having the machines handy has become a great help to me.

I still rinse out a few things and hang them in my shower. I also tend to be more aware of my clothing choices to help minimize the amount of laundry.

Getting old is all about finding new ways to do everyday tasks. 🤭
 
The laundry machines in my building all seem to have their own distinct personality too!

We have new machines from a company called Hercules that work with a prepaid card or a tap from an iPhone.

The wash is now $2.40 and $2.00 to dry for approx. one hour.

I switched to all in one laundry pods to eliminate the need to lug the various cleaning products back and forth.

I also swapped the laundry basket for inexpensive reusable grocery bags, dedicated to the laundry. It’s easier to grab the straps and do a ‘farmers carry’ than it is to carry the basket.

My only complaint is the lack of maintenance in our common areas and the people that don’t clean up after themselves.

Having the machines handy has become a great help to me.

I still rinse out a few things and hang them in my shower. I also tend to be more aware of my clothing choices to help minimize the amount of laundry.

Getting old is all about finding new ways to do everyday tasks. 🤭
Good tips, Aunt Bea!
 
The laundry machines in my building all seem to have their own distinct personality too!

We have new machines from a company called Hercules that work with a prepaid card or a tap from an iPhone.

The wash is now $2.40 and $2.00 to dry for approx. one hour.

I switched to all in one laundry pods to eliminate the need to lug the various cleaning products back and forth.

I also swapped the laundry basket for inexpensive reusable grocery bags, dedicated to the laundry. It’s easier to grab the straps and do a ‘farmers carry’ than it is to carry the basket.

My only complaint is the lack of maintenance in our common areas and the people that don’t clean up after themselves.

Having the machines handy has become a great help to me.

I still rinse out a few things and hang them in my shower. I also tend to be more aware of my clothing choices to help minimize the amount of laundry.

Getting old is all about finding new ways to do everyday tasks. 🤭
I carry my laundry in a small basket that fits exactly on the top of my walker. Then when I bring the laundry back to my apartment, I drape it along the sides of the basket to try to keep it from wrinkling. Then fold or hang in my apartment.

I wash everything in cold water and some do not go in the dryer but I hang in the shower. My detergent I pour into a small canning jelly jar and carry that. My walker is so handy!

Our maintenance man does not do the cleaning anymore (he is new, young and not experienced). Other tenants have taken that job over but lately are not consistent since they are away working at the fairs. I miss our old maintenance guy!
 
When my friend calls me, she always says, "What did you do today?" I am dumbstruck.........what did I do today that is worth mentioning?

Coffee and computer first of course. Then I went downstairs and got my deliveries. I made an order for groceries from Walmart. Jeff came here and we ordered CDs for him. Cooked breakfast and washed dishes. Re-potted my African Violet and cleaned up that mess! Groomed my bunny boy. Then cleaned his cage.

It sounds like a lot of trivial boring jobs that shouldn't take too long. But in between I have to sit down and then try again. The jobs I planned to do I have not even gotten to yet and I doubt I will today. I am not competing with her for the most fulfilling jobs. Though because she has her own house and still works I figure she wins. That is if she really did those things. When I was into the modern homesteading lifestyle I did things she could not do. Now she can?
 
The passing of time for me is noted by the routines or chores I do on a daily basis. I didn't think about this before but if I do not ever do certain chores at a certain time then that is when I lose track of time. I do not do every chore or routine at a certain time every day, but I know I have to do it.

If a person sleeps all day and wakes up thinking it is nighttime because they missed the whole previous day. But it is actually morning.......the next morning, that person lost track of time. Missed a whole day. I imagine someone taking prescriptions may do that at times due to the affects of what they are taking.

Without looking at a clock I can usually tell what it is time to do. Animals do this. They don't use clocks yet they know instinctively what it is time for. Especially their mealtimes! Or bedtime. If I woke up with no plan for my day I do not know what I would do. I would not want to go back to sleep. Especially if I just woke up.
 
I somehow "feel" the passage of time. I can be doing about anything, working, cooking, computer stuff, or even sleeping and I feel time pass. I know within about 15 minutes what time it is without looking at a clock. Like I can feel the temperature within about 5 degrees. I don't feel like this is a special gift, it is how I have been since I was a child. I am hypersensitive to my environment. I need to be alone a lot or I start feeling bad. I really like living in the forest. I feel it all around. Nature.

I know you lived that way for years. I imagine you felt the same way. You had some great times homesteading. It is part of that strong character that you have. Working the land does build character. I know your bunny knows this too. :)
 
The passing of time for me is noted by the routines or chores I do on a daily basis. I didn't think about this before but if I do not ever do certain chores at a certain time then that is when I lose track of time. I do not do every chore or routine at a certain time every day, but I know I have to do it.

If a person sleeps all day and wakes up thinking it is nighttime because they missed the whole previous day. But it is actually morning.......the next morning, that person lost track of time. Missed a whole day. I imagine someone taking prescriptions may do that at times due to the affects of what they are taking.

Without looking at a clock I can usually tell what it is time to do. Animals do this. They don't use clocks yet they know instinctively what it is time for. Especially their mealtimes! Or bedtime. If I woke up with no plan for my day I do not know what I would do. I would not want to go back to sleep. Especially if I just woke up.
I once read that we can't live without our circadian rhythms. This was in connection to our living outside our solar system. It seems to me as a layman that we can if we have to.
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This morning the first thing I did after I got my coffee and turned on the computer was to go to fakebook. One of my friends, who I went to school with when I lived in Flagler Beach had posted yesterday that her husband was missing. He is 75 and has dementia. He was sitting in their truck while she was in the store (and has done that often). When she came out the truck was gone along with him. She contacted the police and everyone was looking for him.

He has not driven in over two years so she did not expect him to do that. He did though. Drove to Cape Canaveral! About 100 miles away! Thank God, he was found there at a 7-11 and safe, but confused. He was taken to the hospital to be checked out and she was on her way down.

I thought and prayed about him all night long. Even had dreams about Flagler Beach. I never met him but have enjoyed their posts on FB with their dogs and trips they take. They just got back last week from a trip. Funny how you get to care about people you don't know in person or barely know. I think it is all about loving one another.
 
I got to and from the foot doctor's office with no problem. I stopped once and sat down under the canopy at NBT bank. I was early and didn't have to wait very long. It turned out to be a nice walk because there was a breeze. Even though it is still hot out, it was overcast, and had the feeling of fall in the air. I had it in my mind that I was going to have a hard time getting to that appointment but I was wrong. I need to be more positive.

Then later on Rabbit's hay was delivered so I went downstairs and got it. Lifted that heavy box onto my walker with no help. I amaze myself sometimes with the things I manage to do. Instead of thinking I can't do it, I need to think I can (like the little red caboose!).
 
I got to and from the foot doctor's office with no problem. I stopped once and sat down under the canopy at NBT bank. I was early and didn't have to wait very long. It turned out to be a nice walk because there was a breeze. Even though it is still hot out, it was overcast, and had the feeling of fall in the air. I had it in my mind that I was going to have a hard time getting to that appointment but I was wrong. I need to be more positive.

Then later on Rabbit's hay was delivered so I went downstairs and got it. Lifted that heavy box onto my walker with no help. I amaze myself sometimes with the things I manage to do. Instead of thinking I can't do it, I need to think I can (like the little red caboose!).
So happy to see your journey to the Doc was okay for you. You hauled up Rabbit's hay.

Looks like there may be more things that you can do that you didn't think.....all because you take good care of yourself, are aware of your body and it's needs. You are so wise about these things. 🌹
 
So happy to see your journey to the Doc was okay for you. You hauled up Rabbit's hay.

Looks like there may be more things that you can do that you didn't think.....all because you take good care of yourself, are aware of your body and it's needs. You are so wise about these things. 🌹
Thank you, but I never consider myself wise. I spend a lot of time learning about health and what I can do to improve whatever condition I am dealing with at the time. I cannot give in to not being able to do something. Walking yesterday was good for me. This morning it is raining so not going to be walking outside.
 
It has been raining here for days. Haven't been out to walk for exercise just briefly for shopping. A few days ago, sunny & 90F and now it's in the sixties! I'm wearing sweatpants & sweatshirt, I'm so cold! What happened to summer? The leaves are already turning brown & falling. I want summer back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
This morning
It has been raining here for days. Haven't been out to walk for exercise just briefly for shopping. A few days ago, sunny & 90F and now it's in the sixties! I'm wearing sweatpants & sweatshirt, I'm so cold! What happened to summer? The leaves are already turning brown & falling. I want summer back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am opposite of you. I want it to be cooler. When it is hot out (at least 70's) I can barely stand it. I get red......even my hands! I have my air conditioner on as soon as it hits 63. It is on now. You are right though, yesterday on my walk to the doctor I said to myself that fall is in the air.
 
I got to and from the foot doctor's office with no problem. I stopped once and sat down under the canopy at NBT bank. I was early and didn't have to wait very long. It turned out to be a nice walk because there was a breeze. Even though it is still hot out, it was overcast, and had the feeling of fall in the air. I had it in my mind that I was going to have a hard time getting to that appointment but I was wrong. I need to be more positive.
It's very windy here today...too.. but it's 72 degrees so still warm altho' with a welcome breeze.. . and overcast.

Not getting into autumn here at all yet.. the forecast is for higher temps again in the next few days
 


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